Hi everyone. It’s been a century since I’ve written something. I figured that it was time to break the silence and give you a life update on what’s been going on these past few months and how I’ve been.
So, what have I been up to?
To be honest, most of what I’ve been caught up with is just work. If you guys forgot, I work a full-time job. Aside from that, there have been a few life events that occurred.
Gunner: If you didn’t know, I’m a mother of bunnies (@gunandlills). Unfortunately over the past few months, my male bunny, Gunner, got sick and passed away. It was a very difficult few months, but he was such a little trooper who is sorely missed. May he rest in peace and have a wonderful afterlife across the rainbow bridge. RIP 11.7.2015 – 7.28.2019.
Wolfie: One of my dreams came true and we adopted a beautiful Samoyed puppy, Wolfie (@lifeaswolfie). He was born on May 13, so he is a Gemini just like Yan and I (yeah I have no idea how we manage to have THREE Geminis living together…). He has been such a lovable floof and while we love him to pieces, he’s also a HUGE pain in the ass. No one ever mentioned how hard it was to have a puppy. It’s literally like raising a baby. The first month we got little to no sleep. It’s been a rollercoaster of love, hate, crying (puppy blues is REAL), laughing, and just banging our heads on the table.
Tiger Lilly: She’s our other bunny, who is now a widow. It’s been very sad seeing her mope around as I’m sure she misses her late husbun. She’s also petrified of Wolfie, so getting her to warm up to him has been a slow, and I mean slow, process. Right now, she tolerates him from a distance. We make sure to continue to give her the extra love and attention she needs. We also recently discovered that she loves carrots, which is funny because when Gunner was around, they both refused to touch them. Maybe that goes to show how much she loved him.
LASIK: My eyesight was pretty bad and I’ve always pushed the idea of LASIK off because I was terrified of the idea of a knife cutting my eye while I was awake. Some background – I’ve had glasses since 4th grade. Each year my eyesight has gotten progressively worse and I had astigmatism in my left eye. I usually hid the fact that I had glasses by wearing contacts, and occasionally colored contacts since I always dreamed of having lighter eyes. It wasn’t until my friend, Jenny, got LASIK and assured me that the technology updated so they just use lasers and no knives, that I seriously considered it. So much so that I booked a consultation and decided to schedule the surgery 2 weeks after. I got it done in June and I have never looked back. I admit, the first week I kept freaking out thinking I slept in my contacts (I’ve fallen asleep in them before and it is NOT pretty). But now, I love being able to actually see without any help. It’s been a huge game-changer and sometimes I forget that I’ve ever had glasses/contacts before. My goal was to get a video on YouTube about my experience, but I’ve been pushing it off (I got the surgery in June). I promise I’ll have it up soon so you guys can all get the 411 on it!
Depression: I’ve been falling back into episodes of depression. It happens out of nowhere, with no rhyme nor reason, and it’s been very frustrating and disheartening because I feel like I’ve come so far from it. I could be having a great week, and suddenly I get sucked into that black hole again. I’ve been trying to work on this, trying to figure out what the underlying reason could be, but no leads yet.
Reinspired: I went through a content creation funk, but hid it (sorry). For a while, I felt so unmotivated to create content and it literally felt like a chore. I began to hate it, and Instagram, to the point where I constantly thought about throwing in the towel but continued to post consistently because I knew that if I stopped, that would be it. I recently gained some new inspiration from @paigearminta‘s account and have participated in her weekly challenges, forming a new perspective and outlook on content storytelling. I feel a lot better about things and am now invested in challenging myself creatively, even if it’s one step at a time.
How have I been?
Well, it’s been a bit of a rollercoaster ride, but I’m happy to say that I’m finally in a place where I feel that I’m moving forward, and not just at a standstill. Some days are tough, but that’s life right? There are a ton of things I want to do and continue to do, so I’ve been taking it as I go. The hardest thing is starting, but once I get some momentum, I believe things will start looking up.
Writing this post is a start. Next goal? Continue to blog. Bigger goal? Get back to writing the novel that I stopped working on.
I also have a few things coming up that I’m excited for. I’m finally going ziplining early October with Yan. We’ve been talking about doing this every fall, but for some reason, we never committed to it. Now it’s officially on the books and I’m so excited! The other is I have a trip to Bali late October! It will be an opportunity to a) relax (because I surely need it), b) spend quality time with my “sister from another mister” (Jenny), and c) explore new places and expand my cultural experiences.