I’ve always been fond of the idea of writing a letter to myself. Ideally, it would have been a letter to my younger self offering the advice and words of wisdom that present me wishes I could have known. Since that’s not really a logical possibility nor would it be helpful since, well, I’m “grown up” now, I thought how about a letter to my future self? Taking the idea of a time capsule, except instead of storing a handwritten letter inside an invincible treasure chest, I’d be storing it on the web. Well, here goes nothing…
Dear Future Self,
How are you? It’s me. Well, I’m you. You from your early 20’s. I’m sure you’re sitting there like, “Wow. I really wrote this? How crazy! Why would I ever write a letter to myself?” And sure it may be crazy, but that’s me – well us. I’m still working out how to phrase it. But I figured, knowing us, you’d eventually want to look back and just reflect. It’s been a while, huh? I’m sure you’ve come a long way. You must only remember glimpses of me now. Glimpses of you. I wonder how different we must be, how much time has passed, and where you are.
I may not know what you’ve got going on, or what you’ve been through, but I do know one thing: you’re strong. And knowing us you must be smirking or laughing out loud at the comment, but you are. It took me a long time to realize that, and I’m sure you can recall how difficult it was to come to this realization. For the longest time, we were lost. Floating. We pretended to have strength, relied on no one, and took on more than we can handle. We fell. We broke. Then we got up. We learned. We moved forward.
I want you to know how terribly sorry I am for the way I treated us back then. I overworked us, fell into the hole of emotions, and became driven on things that didn’t matter. I forgot to live for us. Instead, I lived to please others, to meet expectations that were too high, to push us until we broke. And though the journey was long and tiring, I’ve finally learned. I managed to pick us back up and lean on the support of others. I slowly recognized our value, our self worth, and got us a step closer to sophrosyne. I taught us that it’s okay to be selfish, that we must love ourselves first, and that we must invest in ourself to become a better version. I hope all of my efforts gave you the right foundation to where you are now. For who you are now.
On my end, I promise to create as many memories as I can for us. I’m certainly aiming to cross a lot off our bucket list, especially before we become too old (hah to you!). I promise to keep learning, to never give up, to relax and let life run its course, and to smile more. I promise to spend more time creating moments and less time behind a screen. I hope that I stay true to these promises or at least try my very best to. Every experience helps shape us to who we are, however our mind and how we perceive each situation pushes us in the direction we wish to go.
I’m sure you know that we can’t control everything and sometimes plans fall apart. I know that we set a lot of plans for the future and I want you to know that I trust that even if some things did not go to plan, it’s okay. Things will always fall into place and everything happens for a reason. I’ll understand. And I hope you’ll go easy on yourself. Don’t beat yourself up over things you don’t have control over. Make the best out of what we have. Always stay positive.
I may not know what the future holds, but I know what the present does and from what I see we’ve come such a long way already. I can only dream of what we will achieve in the future. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders and you’re stronger than you believe. Even though at times you may feel like you’re alone, you’re not. You have so many people around you that love you for every inch of your large heart and every detail of your flaws. You are an inspiration. You are an incredible being and it’s about time that you fully believe it. You will do amazing things, I’m positive. I believe in you and in us. Wherever you may be in life now, just know that younger you has always been rooting for you. I may have been your biggest critique, but I’ve also been your biggest fan.
With all my sincerest love and well wishes,
Your Younger Self
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