Hi lovelies, it’s been a while hasn’t it? I’m sitting here trying to compose my thoughts in a collective manner, but I can’t quite put feelings into words. I’m afraid to admit that I’ve been a little overly stressed this past week. I can’t exactly pinpoint when it began, or why, or how, but it’s there in existence just floating around. I suppose it’s a jumble of things, between time management, school, work, and just life – right?
I guess I can say that I feel utterly burned out. And coming from someone who constantly likes to keep herself busy, this is probably one of the worst feelings I could feel. Not only am I unmotivated, I’m exhausted both mentally and physically. I personally feel drained and part depressed. I’m in a slump.
This, of course, is normal. I’ve been here before, and perhaps you have too, but it doesn’t lessen the unpleasantness. Between the lack of sleep, the growing list of things I have to do, I find myself sitting here in front of everything and just wanting it all to stop.
And it’s funny because not too long ago I was reading about Natalia Ogle’s (Style Tomes) post about blogger burnout and it’s just crazy how suddenly I found myself in the same predicament.
What does my burn out look like?
Sleeping at 2:30 am or later just to wake up less than 5 hours later #teamnosleep. In fact, I’m actually writing this post a little past 2:30 am. To some, this isn’t that bad. It’s not like I’m running on 2-3 hours of sleep a day, but it adds up and after days of the same routine, I find it so hard to function.
The moment I close my eyes, I see the growing list of things I need to tackle. I like to plan and map out my days and what I have to do. When things like lack of sleep and depleted mood get into the mix, it’s very hard to cross things off. The list just keeps growing and I’m at a point where I run out of time and energy. So I push things off and they pile up. 5 things turn to 10 turn to 20.
Caffeine not working. I usually limit myself to 1 cup if I really need it. But lately, 1 doesn’t do justice. Today is a prime example: I had a 3 hour lecture and not even my cup of Starbucks can save me. I had to get another cup later in the day just to survive my night classes.
Loss of motivation. I’ve been really fighting this. I’ve been posting to Instagram daily to keep up my momentum, but I’ve just been lacking in the blogging department. There have been many moments where I really just want to throw my phone at the wall and sit in a corner. Sometimes I just want to cry cause at least that will help me materialize my feelings. But the tears don’t come. It’s kinda funny because I’m actually too tired to cry. It took a lot of time for me to write my next blog post. I stared incessantly at the blinking cursor of a blank page. And I love to write. I really do. It pains me because for the past two years I’ve picked up and dropped my writing projects. My aspired novels. They’re sitting there in empty space waiting for me to write, give them purpose and fill its chapters.
So how do I plan on coming out of this funk?
There’s no true method, but my biggest suggestion is to see what works best for you. I’ve come up with things I feel like I need to work on to push past this:
- Time Management
I had a schedule in place where I devoted my time to specific priorities. It seemed to be working, until I found myself here… so I need to revamp it and adjust. This is so important. Make sure all your plans are flexible and you can work with them to fit around you. Change is constant.
Prepare yourself for things that need extra care. I plan my days out with deadlines, but one thing I do lack is preparation. WordPress has a schedule button for a reason! I’ve stuck to the method of impromptu writing and posting on the spot. My life would be a lot easier if I wrote on my down time and scheduled posts so I’m not frantically rushing everything. Speaking of which, I’m scheduling this post. Gotta start somewhere.
- Find Time To Relax
With my mind constantly going, it’s important to know when to hit pause and unwind. This might include reading a book, catching up on some tv shows, or just purely doing something I enjoy. Or it can be something as simple as stopping to just breathe.
- Noting Accomplishments
I’m taking this out of Natalia’s post because positive vibes is something that seriously pulls you out of a slump and what better way than to do so with my own accomplishments? Highlighting the good really helps you fix your mentality. There’s always a light!
- Sleep More
Thankfully my eating has not been affected, but my sleeping has. I definitely need to invest more time in catching some z’s so that I feel more energized and less like a zombie. Paying attention to your body is so important. Replenish, replenish, replenish!
Ending this on a more positive note, I’m back into the swing of things (I hope). The last mountain I need to push through are my midterms and I’m dedicating some time to study and bang them out the best I can. Sending positive vibes to everyone who needs a little support. You got this!